LIVE BY THE CREED

Morning all. It’s 6.38am as I start writing this but I’ve already been up an hour and a half. Not good, but that’s what my weekday mornings are normally like if I have work.

Anyway, I had my ‘practical skills test’ for this new job yesterday. I had half an hour to design a panel, following a brief I had been given (which was very specific by the way, but I guess they would be normally) and then half an hour to code it so that a third of the picture was a click-able link. Only thing I forgot was how to remove the border from the linked image, but I knew I needed to do but just couldn’t remember. I’m going to blame it on the supplier I was speaking to for 20 minutes before the test. Silly supplier.

I hope it doesn’t count against me. The guy seemed to understand it can be hard when I’ve been in a certain mind set all day and then at half 3 I suddenly have to switch. And I explained that I normally have all that stuff set up in a style sheet ready for me, so I don’t actually type it out that much. But we’ll see. He said he would let me know after they had tested the rest of the applicants. So I just play the waiting game now….

On a slightly different note, the stuff I ordered from Play.com should be here in the next couple of days, including my nice, big SkullCandy headphones. Oh, and I’m going to the gym tonight. For the first time in ages. So that should be fun. Might just work on my CV today, treadmill and cycle machines and the like.

Have fun today people. If I can manage it, I might post tonight as well, if I have any news… haha
~ Matt

I feel really fed up today. Like, I’ve had enough of the life I’m living a the minute. I feel… stale. Not sure it that’s the right word, but I’m bored of the situation I’m in. I can’t believe I’m 21 and already been working a full time job for almost 3 years. It’s not right.

I feel like I missed out by not going to uni. I guess that’s the main reason I’ve been considering it so much recently. My biggest concern is that most of my mates are finishing uni this summer now, so then I’ll be behind them even more.

I want to go exploring. I want to travel the world, go to countries I can’t pronounce and learn about the lifestyles of the locals. I want to do Parkour and go climbing and swimming and diving all over the place. I want to travel so much. I think this is my biggest thing: I don’t like being in the same spot for too long. I get itchy feet and want to move on. Not a great trait, I know. And it’s definitely not one you would mention in a job interview. But it’s the truth for me.

Don’t get me wrong, I know I have it easy at the minute. A decent job on a good wage for someone my age with my qualifications. Very little rent to pay. Very little bills to pay. But it’s not what I want.

I feel like I need to do a bit of catching up. It’s odd, but going out and getting pissed and waking up in a strangers house sounds so appealing to me recently. I was never really one for going out but having done so recently I have really enjoyed myself and I want to do it as much as possible. But at the minute, I don’t get to. Only if I am on holiday or in Manchester. I don’t get to go out on a regular basis because I don’t know anyone in Barnsley and if I go out in Leeds I have to worry about catching my last train home. Rubbish.

Part of me is also worried about me and Abi. I love her to bits but it’s killing me doing this long distance relationship. Admittedly it’s not as bad as me and Kayeleigh, but it’s still horrible not being able to see here every day. I’m starting to not really enjoy going to Manchester as well now because it means sharing a single bed and worrying about work on a Monday morning. It’s really nice when Abi comes to mine, but then I know she has to worry about catching the train and what not. And it’s hard because she talks about everything that is happening at uni and with her mates and I can’t keep up. She’ll mention someone and expect a reaction from me, but a lot of the time I have no idea who she is on about. Maybe it’s just because my memory is crap. But I struggle. Sometimes I think she would be better going out with someone like Jake. I mean, she talks about him loads and is always on about going to clubs and gigs with him. Maybe it would be better for her if she did go out with him.

Argh. I hate it when my head is so messed up. But I don’t know what to do. Maybe if I had loads of money I could just fake my own death and run away from it all. Start a new life, under a new name. Sometimes I wish I could escape from it all, start over again. Paint a new past, over the rubbish one I currently have.

But we don’t always get what we want…

Just been to see iron man 2. Was very good. I’m updating this from my iPhone so it won’t be very detailed but I definately urge you to go see it if you haven’t already. Marvel fans, keep your eyes open for link ins with other going ons in the marvel world. Top notch film. So glad I went to see it (and Abi came with me!)